Just had to

I saw this plant and i just had to buy it .... It's funky and unusual

3rd Time Lucky

Ok so you saw a picture from a previous blogs the one from so many questions wheres the answers. Well Jules did that using a program called blender.

I have been trying to get the book and everywhere is out of stock.. then i found someone online who said they had 1 in stock so i ordered it. Nope got an e mail saying sorry the site is incorrect we have none in stock it will be 4-6 weeks until we do.

So got a refund and searched again and found another site.. phoned them and he said yes we have 1 left. So i placed order. Got another e mail saying we are sorry but we have none in stock they are being reprinted and will get back to you when in stock again. I phoned them and cancelled order.

And i'm getting impatient now!!!!

Sat there this morning searching again phoning bookstores all over london and finally found a shop that had 2!!!! I had one put to one side for me with my name on it.
Spoke to paul and told him i was going to get it today! otherwise knowing my luck it will be gone.

And he came with me to the west end as he was buying it for a birthday present and i returned home with the book!!!

So keeping this short and sweet..... off to read book HAHA

BOSHBOSH....

BoshBosh is actually a young, dynamic and creative organisation. We have a cause and are committed to it. Millions of people around the world are affected by the "C" word. If you havent been affected by it, the chances are that someone you love has.

Cancer is a word that conjures up dark thoughts that nobody wants to entertain or talk about. But the fact of the matter is that if we don't talk about it we will never get to the bottom of it.

BoshBosh is not a charity. We are an awareness organisation. We create events and publications that open up channels for generating funds for cancer related charities. We use our promotional skills and network of friends and supporters to bring attention to the cruelty of cancer.

We currently have plans underway to create a club night in the capital and 6 other major cities in the south. Pooling local talent to create a series of unforgettable evenings, which will generate awareness and ultimately provoke generosity towards our chosen cancer charities.

Ok that's a brief summary of how we operate, the proof of the pudding is in the tasting.

If you are interested in helping out please contact info @ boshbosh.com or visit www.boshbosh.com

BoshBosh has been set up by a friend of mine due to his loss of someone close and I have already put myself forward to help as i believe in what he is doing as i have also been affected by this topic.

BOSHBOSH MYSPACE

So many questions wheres the answers???

Ok first of all i have to say a BIG Thank you to Jules for designing this picture for me (your a star) and if you like his pictures just click on his name to see more.

Right questions....

Can you cry underwater??

Do animals really understand humans??

If you choke a Smurf, what color does it turn??

How does a fish sleep??

How do "Do not walk on the grass" signs get there??

What was the best thing before sliced bread??

Why is the word for "a fear of long words" so long(Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia) ??

If a turtle loses its shell is it naked or homeless??

Here are just a few.. if you know the answers feel free to tell me ..

Ok so after publishing this blog Seb has made a picture for one of my questions and here it is...you can also find it by clicking the link that says GLOBAL6

OOOPS I FORGOT...

My Sister reads my blog and reminded me of something I forgot to post about which was something she forgot! so here it is....

On 11th august (day before birthday) i got a phone call from my sis saying im really sorry I forgot to post your card this morning but i will post it by end of day. Ok i said dont worry.
She had to post it by the end of the day as she was due to go to cornwall for a week leaving that night.
Birthday arrives and i get a phone call from her to say happy birthday and im really sorry i forgot to post your card and it is at home in surrey and im in cornwall. So i would have to wait a week for her to come back and post it. After laughing i said not to worry and she assured me it was a really good card and it was worth the wait.!!
So just over a week later sure enough my card arrived (which i had forgot about by now) which was a nice surprise. And yep she was right it was a really nice card and here it is...

SISTERLY LOVE!!

You Ever Wish....???

You could have a different life for a day/week??

You could wake up and do everything you cant do??

That you couldnt feel pain??

You could have a shower and wash away that "low" feeling??

Lately....

Hey im here again

aaarrrrggghhh!!!!!!

have i been fed up lately. As you may have read earlier on in this blog i was on drug trials to try and help relieve the pain of RSD. Well i had the last lot of my infusions last week (tuesday) and oh boy what a day. We had trouble finding a vein.. (they were hiding LOL) tried twice in my hand, once by my elbow and then ended up with the canula in my foot!
So after feeling like a pin cushion i came home and didnt want to do anything.
Then on Wednesday i wasnt feeling too good but thought may be down to lack of sleep. But no.. i started sneezing and getting a sore throat.
On Friday i was still feeling out of sorts and my eczema decided to flare up, which was ok until saturday... then it was over both my hands and i wanted to chop them off. eczema not only itches but on my bad hand feels like razor blades being swiped across my hand!!! And have to wait until Monday to see Dr for more painkillers and cream.. ARRRRGGGHHHHH
But at least i thought cold was gettng better.....

Saw Dr on monday and i thought everything was sorted.

Woke up Tuesday and not only is cream for eczema not working my sore throat has come back with avengence. i feel like a walking disaster LOL not only have i got Rsd, a cold and eczema which feels more like razors i am not sleeping and having panic attacks at night.

I have asked paul to shoot me, asked the Dr to put me down but no body seems happy enough to oblige... any offers to help??? LOL

My Birthday

It was my birthday on 12th august and I have decided they are just not the same anymore!

I remember getting all excited and waking up really early with the attitude that "i'm up so all up". Not this time.

I just wanted a nice quiet day to do whatever I wanted and then go out in the evening for a drink with some friends. A couple of friends came along and was a nice night. Of course there was my other half, Paul whos really sweet and stands by me (even when grumpy).

We had Yati who was snotty and not well but bless her she dragged herself out to see me which meant alot (thanks hun!), There was Jules who prefers garage to house music but still came along (bless him) plus we managed to talk about a 3d program he has been using which i plan to start on soon :D

Then there was seb... hmm now what is there to say about seb. It was nice to have him there coz he does make you laugh and upon reading yati's blog he complained as there was no mention of his gay dancing.. so i thought i would share this with everyone...........

Yup this is seb and his gay dancing!!

Last but not least there was melo, hes a good laugh and always makes sure everyones ok. (all together now AWWWWW) haha.

There were some other people i invited who unfortunately couldnt make it, like Michael A , snorbs, Blush. but its ok as i got a happy birthday off them anyway.

One last thank you to yati for the sore throat i got 3 days later. :D, So anyway that was my birthday and now got another year to go.

2 FOR 1 !!

It has been a while since i have updated but i have been having a bad couple of days...

I have come to the conclusion that i get 2 BAD days for every good one.
The other day i was having a reasonable day with my pain and actually felt abit energetic for a change so paul was moving some things around in the front room i.e HIS STUDIO! and i was tidying up and putting things back to normal. Well by the time i had finished i was in pain and hand was quite swollen.
I have suffered from that since... not sleeping and in alot of pain which even my painkillers arent helping much. Part of me has wanted to hibernate but no chance of that hahaha.
Anyway pain is starting to calm down now so hopefully will be adding more very soon.

I'VE FINISHED!!!!

I have finished my cross stitch :D woooo hoooo finally had a week of no hospital appointments which helped me to do more. So here it is :


Have to share it with everyone as this has been quite a challenge for me due to the lack of use from one hand.

AARRGGHHH What a Week

OMG!!! The past week has been one i wish i could erase. I have had 9 hours sleep in 5 days, been to so many hospital appointments and in more pain than usual. One good thing that came out of it was i have been accepted on some drug trials to try and reduce the pain i am in. Which to me is brilliant as i will try anything to reduce this pain. Anyway i have joined a forum of people that know what i am going through and are all very nice, caring and very friendly people. It was suggested to me that i need a hobby/ distraction from the pain/depression etc. So i bought a cross stitch kit and have been doing it for a week now... After the week i have had i decided i was not going to do anything today only stuff i want to.... so i did my cross stitch and here it is so far....

So while i was doing this my other half was doing what he normally does which was making noise and enjoying himself.. i have proof... but shhhhhh dont tell him hahaha

Yati's Influence

Being off work is boring and there is only so much housework one can do.

So today I thought of something to do.. My friend yati likes flowers and buys them on regular occassions so it gave me an idea.... and here it is :

A Special Flower i did just for yati.... Its not painted ( im not that talented haha ) it was something i put together using photoshop.
Any way im going to go back to playing around and Yati i hope you like it.

Also if anyone has any ideas or inspiration just leave me a mesg and it will give me something to do

Torture Clinic

Ok so its 11.30pm and i cant sleep so i thought i would come and share part of my day with you all.

Had Torture Clinic (physio) this afternoon.
Went in and told her that with whatever she did the week previous it really aggravated my pain, so she said that i had permission to call her a B*tch haha. But then all jokes aside we were going to look at relieving my pain today not increasing it.(but i took painkillers before... thinking id be clever).

So she pulled my arm about, prodded my shoulder and my spine. Yes it hurt but not severley. Then she got me to try crossing my arms and twisting side to side.... OH BOY did that hurt.
She wasnt impressed when i did this as it made her realise i was worse than she originally suspected.. (awkward as usual).

Anyway i walked out of there in pain but not huge amounts like before.
Well i thought i had escaped it this week but OH NO.... painkillers started to wear off and man did i feel it..my arm/shoulder really hurt...which made me grumpy and abit upset.

Its part of the reason i am sat here typing all this nonsense.... i went to bed and after i had a big hug and abit of a cry on paul i tried to get comfortable.
Turned out that was useless because i couldnt and i would move so it eased the pain the 5 minutes later have to move again and this was disturbing paul. So i got back up and here i am :D

Only evil people that like to inflict pain become physiotherapists!!!!

Poem

Way of venting anger...


Hi Im pain
Not temporary
But permanent
Sometimes I ache
Sometimes I pulsate
Other times I am shooting you
But you cant stop me
You cant see me!
And yet I control you
In more ways you can imagine
I will make you miserable
I will rob all your dignity
I will make loved ones miserable
And fill you full of fear
I am your new enemy
Here to ruin your life
Even doctors fear me
Do they know what to do with me?
I hear you ask yourself
Will I ever be rid of it??
Will I ever be free??
Will I have my life back??
Or lose all that means the world to me??
I can here you deep down
Begging and pleading
But am I taking notice?
Youll have to wait and see

Hello This is Me!

Im Danni aka Cheeky.

I have been off work for 7 months and im going insane. So I decided to start a blog about my ever exciting life after seeing and reading my friends one (YATI).

Ok why don't we start with why I have been off work for 7 months shall we...........

Just over 2 years ago I had an accident at work and broke my right wrist. Alright I thought 6 weeks off work in plaster.. Not the end of the world ill get over it. Well it wasn't that easy... I had to spend 1 week of that in Spain and also had to find clothes to go with a bright orange plaster which wasn't easy.
Went back to the hospital and had it cut off then first priority was washing it (it gets abit whiffy in there). Was x rayed again ... all ok so was sent home and back to work.

But as this is my life it wasn't that simple. I was still in a lot of pain along with swelling discolouration and lack of mobility. After being told by a consultant it was all in my head he sent me for an MRI scan. I was finally told that there was something wrong, I know have something called REFLEX SYMPATHETIC DYSTROPHY (RSD) . Yep I bet ya face looked the same reading that as when I was told HAHA.
I wont go into the gritty detail but basically I am in constant pain with swelling, lack of movement, discolouration and the list goes on. If you are at all interested about it then please have a look.....RSD.
I have had two nerve blocks done to try and relieve the pain but without any luck. One of them actually made my hand worse....which is why I am off work again. So now the plan is keep doing Physio (torture clinic as I call it) and wait for acupuncture appointment.
But I have to Give lots of thanks to my partner Paul... He has been brilliant through all of it. Also to all the new people that I have met on RSDUK forum..... You are all very helpful and help to make a difference.